This section should really be renamed to "Introductions"
Posted: Tue May 13, 2008 7:21 am
Hello everyone. I have recently applied to join TTI, and I thought I would give a little more information about myself, maybe start a discussion of some sort. 
I have done a few EVE trial accounts with long gaps in between each one. Never really made a name for myself in EVE anyways, but I was fairly well known on the Lineage 2 and WoW servers I played my mains on; usually as the goofy, deviant, independent, free spirited, well-intentioned, unpredictable scapegoat/punching bag. At first I am a bit shy, but that doesn't last for too long. In most cases, I am the first person my friends come to for advice.
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As for a rough overview of my life so far, I am 21 (wheee alchool!!) currently living near Seattle. Interesting place.. but thats for another time. I was diagnosed with ADD in 3rd grade and put on ritalin. Growing up I was always moving from one place to another, never attending the same school for more than a year, until 4th and 5th grade. For the first time I actually made friends I thought I would have forever. Then I moved again, far enough away so that I couldn't join my friends in the school that was closer to them.
I was put in the special ed program because of my ADD and to let them "help me get organized." However, I was isolated even more from the rest of the kids. I went to the highest ranked Middle and High school in the county, though the area was a very rich, conservative, Christian environment. I think you can imagine how it may have been. Being "treated" for ADD instead of depression (resulted in poor grades), special ed teachers are pretty undermining; I never belonged there and I was treated as a little less than human. Most of the kids I hated with good reason. There have been weeks at a time where I never said anything more than a mumble.
Along with some events I won't mention, I spent a year after graduating trying to find out my purpose in life, where I went wrong with the mistakes I made. I have always been a deep thinker and observer, but a bit pessimistic given my past. I spent many a day, all through my life, probing my conscious, mind, thought patterns, everything, trying to find answers; Why are we alive, why is the world as it is now, who and what am I meant to be, why do I hate so many things?
The result is a disciplined, analytical, extremely perceptive, well-intentioned mind with streaks of melancholy and wrath.
During my time as a night stocker at Target I met someone who helped me to define those answers I have known all of my life, but never could put into words. He introduced me into Ayn Rand, explained various ideas of hers and some of his own. Though I never delved much into her work on my own for a while, I was still fascinated with how much it made sense. Of course I was a bit skeptical because I didn't know the basis behind most of her ideas, just the basics that my friend described. I then moved in with a good friend from high school to go to college, here near Seattle. I still hadn't found all of my answers.
I saw an Atlas Shrugged essay contest in the midst of the other scholarships, and I remembered the vague name of Ayn Rand. I read the book, and didn't finish that essay because I was so overwhelmed by all of this new information. That was about 10 months ago, since then I have changed my view on things many times using the lens of her work. I believe I am finally grasping what she truly meant to say.
And I never expected to find such a seemingly dedicated group of people in a game, devoted to her ideals. I expected bits and pieces scattered through the endless list of Corps, never to rise to their full potential. I have seen spin offs of her Objectivism spread through "RL" and the numerous MMO servers I have played, but never the pure embodiment (aside from the Ayn Rand Institute, which i have yet to research more). Even if I am not accepted to join your cause, I still share many of your ideas, and I am very glad to see such a group exist in the name of reason and freedom. Just the knowledge of your existence brings some strength to me.
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(This is what downtime does to you ><)
I have done a few EVE trial accounts with long gaps in between each one. Never really made a name for myself in EVE anyways, but I was fairly well known on the Lineage 2 and WoW servers I played my mains on; usually as the goofy, deviant, independent, free spirited, well-intentioned, unpredictable scapegoat/punching bag. At first I am a bit shy, but that doesn't last for too long. In most cases, I am the first person my friends come to for advice.
{wall of text}
As for a rough overview of my life so far, I am 21 (wheee alchool!!) currently living near Seattle. Interesting place.. but thats for another time. I was diagnosed with ADD in 3rd grade and put on ritalin. Growing up I was always moving from one place to another, never attending the same school for more than a year, until 4th and 5th grade. For the first time I actually made friends I thought I would have forever. Then I moved again, far enough away so that I couldn't join my friends in the school that was closer to them.
I was put in the special ed program because of my ADD and to let them "help me get organized." However, I was isolated even more from the rest of the kids. I went to the highest ranked Middle and High school in the county, though the area was a very rich, conservative, Christian environment. I think you can imagine how it may have been. Being "treated" for ADD instead of depression (resulted in poor grades), special ed teachers are pretty undermining; I never belonged there and I was treated as a little less than human. Most of the kids I hated with good reason. There have been weeks at a time where I never said anything more than a mumble.
Along with some events I won't mention, I spent a year after graduating trying to find out my purpose in life, where I went wrong with the mistakes I made. I have always been a deep thinker and observer, but a bit pessimistic given my past. I spent many a day, all through my life, probing my conscious, mind, thought patterns, everything, trying to find answers; Why are we alive, why is the world as it is now, who and what am I meant to be, why do I hate so many things?
The result is a disciplined, analytical, extremely perceptive, well-intentioned mind with streaks of melancholy and wrath.
During my time as a night stocker at Target I met someone who helped me to define those answers I have known all of my life, but never could put into words. He introduced me into Ayn Rand, explained various ideas of hers and some of his own. Though I never delved much into her work on my own for a while, I was still fascinated with how much it made sense. Of course I was a bit skeptical because I didn't know the basis behind most of her ideas, just the basics that my friend described. I then moved in with a good friend from high school to go to college, here near Seattle. I still hadn't found all of my answers.
I saw an Atlas Shrugged essay contest in the midst of the other scholarships, and I remembered the vague name of Ayn Rand. I read the book, and didn't finish that essay because I was so overwhelmed by all of this new information. That was about 10 months ago, since then I have changed my view on things many times using the lens of her work. I believe I am finally grasping what she truly meant to say.
And I never expected to find such a seemingly dedicated group of people in a game, devoted to her ideals. I expected bits and pieces scattered through the endless list of Corps, never to rise to their full potential. I have seen spin offs of her Objectivism spread through "RL" and the numerous MMO servers I have played, but never the pure embodiment (aside from the Ayn Rand Institute, which i have yet to research more). Even if I am not accepted to join your cause, I still share many of your ideas, and I am very glad to see such a group exist in the name of reason and freedom. Just the knowledge of your existence brings some strength to me.
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(This is what downtime does to you ><)
